Dear friends, I had no idea that my blog break would extend to the end of May! So much has happened in the last couple of months. I've moved from the "tree house" to the "light house" a little pad just next door to my old place. My BIGGER NEWS is that I found Mr. Wonderful! As you can imagine my routines have been thrown off and I'm adjusting to all the these changes.
I want to welcome you in to my new kitchen...
...to tell you my story and catch up on the great things that are happening. Today's story is about personal transformation and the lessons I've learned. I hope you have time to stay a while. Won't you join me for a little coffee and eggs?
My last post was about crosses - the crossroads in our lives and the crosses (burdens) we carry. I published the cross project in Lent with the intention of returning to blogging on Easter. But alas, I've returned just in time for the end of the Easter season (Pentecost on Sunday marks the end of this cycle).
To prepare for this post I picked up this dried branch from one of my walks. It's simple lines remind me of a cross. My thoughts have been on the burdens I've carried and the burdens I see my friends and the people around me carrying. It has been an incredible 7 year journey with the most transformation happening in the last 2 years.
Here I am pictured on the left in 2008. I look back and see a sweet woman who was carrying more than extra weight. She was carrying years of emotional pain. I look at this woman and I see a creative woman who is very bright but who didn't believe in herself. Pictured on the right is a photo of me from last summer and 50 lbs lighter! I'm often asked how I did it.
The answer is that it starts with LOVE.
I had hit a wall and felt tired of being tired all the time. I had no energy. Marianne Williamson's book, Course in Weight Loss: 21 Spiritual Lessons for Surrendering Your Weight Forever was really instrumental in helping me to identify those things that were weighing me down. This time I approached my weight loss journey from my mind and heart first and then my body responded. You see once I recognized that I no longer needed to hold onto the hurts and pain from my past, I awakened to what my body needed. My focus is now on my energy and the choices I make are all about what gives me energy. Losing the weight has come naturally with this new focus.
Before I could make this change I had to be ready. I had to hit that wall and I had to ask for help. The first lesson in Marrianne's book was the hardest but the key to unlocking the change. In this lesson I looked a 20+ words like shame, disappointment, anger...and I spent time in my journal writing about the experiences connected to these words. As you can imagine it was a painful yet instrumental process. As I finished with each word, we were to imagine this word as a heavy brick and hand it over to the Divine who would and could take the burden. I felt so much lighter after working through this process. I felt a freedom from the emotional weight I had carried for so long.
Six months after losing all of the weight I was ready to invite love in my life. I had been yearning for a companion to share this journey and I felt ready. I tried out several different online dating sites and told everyone I met that I was looking for someone. I picked up Arielle Ford's book, The Soulmate Secret and worked through the exercises in the book. I recognized much of what Arielle Ford suggested in her book as it echoed what I learned from Shakti Gawain's book Creative Visualization
. I've manifested so many things in my life and now I was ready to invite a loving, healthy relationship. The key to manifesting things in our life involves the following steps:
1. Clarity and Intention - It is important to clearly identify what it is that we want. I took a lot of time to look at the qualities of the person I was interested in and "how I wanted to feel" when I was with him. This was more important than what he might look like or what he did for work. I was looking for specific qualities and an outlook on life. Most of all I wanted to feel my best, playful self when I was with this person. I went on a lot of dates and remained open to everyone I met. Everyone was so nice, but there was something lacking, the connection wasn't there until I met the right man.
2. Surrender and Letting Go - Just as I handed over my burden to the Divine to help me with my weight, I decided to hand over my heart's desire. I was telling a colleague of mine about this process and she said she had the perfect thing for me to photograph. She loaned me the hands and heart rock pictured above. It was a gift from one of her students who first found the hands in an antique shop in Ireland and the next day found the perfect heart rock to tuck into the hands. What makes it even more special is that this student didn't know that my friend collected heart rocks. It was a week before moving into my new place when she gave me this treasure. Set on my kitchen table, this beautiful hand and heart reminded me of what I needed to do - hand over my desire, to let go, and to trust in divine timing. The beautiful hands and heart waited for me to be ready to surrender.
3. Preparing for the Outcome - It is important that during the waiting period we use this time to take care of ourselves and to prepare for the outcome. I continued to take care of my body with getting lots of rest, eating healthy foods, and exercising. I knew I wanted to be in my new home before I welcomed my soulmate into my life. I even spent the last 7 years working on getting debt free as I didn't want to bring any baggage into the new relationship. Living a healthy lifestyle has become a way of life for me.
4. Welcoming - When we get what we ask for how do we receive it? Do we get scared, closed off, and run the other way? Are we ready to welcome what we truly desire? I knew that I needed to be open, receptive, and welcoming. I'll tell you a secret, when Mr. Wonderful showed up, it was easy to welcome him because I was ready.
5. Gratitude and Celebration - I feel so blessed. Even before I met my Mr. Wonderful, my heart was filled with such gratitude because I knew that when the time was right, I would share my life with someone who was right for me. It is important to be thankful for what we have right now as well as when our prayers are answered. Celebration is so important and a fun way to honor our blessings.
My Easter Story
The week before Easter I moved into my new pad. It was a Saturday and by Monday night I was all settled in. I stood at the edge of my kitchen and said with certainty, "Okay, I'm ready to welcome him." The following evening I was exhausted and emotional. I was finally ready to surrender and I asked for help. I looked at the hand holding the heart as my heavy tears relaxed my tired body. I closed my eyes and pictured handing over my heart's desire. I said, "I can't do this on my own any more. God, you have so much more information than I do. You know the right person for me. I trust you." In that moment I completely surrendered. I happened to be sitting in front of my computer when I did this. I was ready to drag my body to bed when all of a sudden I received an e-mail from one of the dating sites that said I had caught a man's attention. I was really too tired to care, but thought the timing was interesting. I had just asked for help and here I received a message - quite instantly! I clicked through and was intrigued. Although I was super tired, I pressed on and left a lot of comments on his photos, then went to bed. The next morning I woke up to messages in my inbox. The e-mail exchange over the next few days led to a wonderful conversation. We discovered quickly so many unique interests (including a passion for Ikebana, Japanese flower arranging) that we have in common and a similar outlook on life. The conversation was so different than what I experienced with anyone else. There was no awkwardness at all only deep connection! By Friday night of that week we met. As he walked up the stairs to arrive at my door, he and I both knew he was the one. When he turned the corner and we looked at each other for the first time, we recognized in each other what we've been waiting for all these years. Like magic my walls disappeared and I welcomed him home. By Sunday morning it was Easter and I was sitting in church with my dad singing Alleluia like I had never sung before.
Pictured above is me with Fernando at a friend's artist reception. I love that the altered photo hanging behind us of the three dandelions is titled, "Three Wishes." What are your three wishes?
The day after we met I lit this candle. It was from the same friend who loaned me the hand and heart. She had it for years and it had never been lit. In the early morning, I pulled out my camera and lit the candle and said a prayer of thanksgiving.
Since we met we spend as much time together as we can. We both love to go on outings and to photograph our adventures. You'll see some of what we've been up to on my blog, CollageDiva.com. Here we are enjoying a picnic at one of my favorite places in Maine.
I'm so excited because we are teaming up on making my publishing dreams a reality. We collaborate so well together and share a vision for our future. His dreams and mine converge so beautifully. I'm so very excited, for everything I've worked so hard for over the years, is now coming together.
I hope my story inspires you!
Let my story of personal transformation shine a light on your own story. Whatever burden you are carrying, take heart and know that you have the ability to make a change. Begin by saying, "Yes! I'm ready." From there take some time in your journal to explore your feelings and desires. What is it that you want in your life? Get really clear. Explore what has been holding you back. What are you afraid of? Take your time and above all take really good care of yourself. Treat yourself well by feeding your body with the best foods and giving yourself time to rest. Know that your dreams are not only possible, but waiting for you!
As I prepared for today's blog post, I pulled out my "Journey of the Heart Journal." In the last year I designed over 30 pages. I had the pages printed and patiently waiting for me in a folder.
It was time for me to cut them out and glue them together. As I stood up my journal, I was astonished by all that I had created. I love this little journal and I'm so happy that I've been able to share it with you.
If you are new to this blog, you can access and download these journal pages to make your own journal by subscribing to my e-mail newsletter. I have a private blog just for my subscribers where the journal pages are found. Each page has reflection questions and affirmations to guide you.
I'm still adjusting to my new life and I'm not sure what is next here at True North Arts. For now, I intend to stay in touch regularly with blog posts and e-mails that offer gentle reminders to make time for yourself and your dreams. There are a number of artists I'm interested in interviewing who I know will inspire you. Look for these interviews throughout the summer. And, when my BIG DREAM project emerges, my readers will be the FIRST to know!
This is an exciting time and I'm so grateful to all of you for sharing this journey. I look forward to hearing from you. Your stories inspire me. No matter where you are at on your journey, you have so much to share!
Winner Announcement
It pleases me to no end to announce the winner of the Making Crosses book. One blogger who goes by the name, Morning Dove embraced the cross making project and endeavored to make crosses throughout Lent. I loved seeing how her creativity emerged. Check out this cross that she made from a gorgeous Camilla blossom. Her enthusiasm made her the natural recipient of this book. Congratulations dear one!
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Until next time,
Namaste,
Kathryn, Collage Diva









I feel lucky to live during this time when technology allows me to connect so easily with other creative people. Here's to sharing our gifts, talents, and inspiration with each other...that just expotentially multiplies the luck for all of us.