Each Wednesday Jamie Ridler poses a question on her blog. Rather than answering the question on the same day, I carry the question with me and give it some consideration. Last week she asked, "What is your winter wish?"
I'm working through Marianne Williamson's new book, "A Course in Weight Loss." The very first lesson involves looking at the brick wall that I have created. Each brick has a word on it, a pretty heavy word I might add. We are to write about the experiences associated with these words. To work on this exercise, I designed these "notecard bricks" and they are tucked into a pocket in my new journal.
My big winter wish is to break down this wall.
I have a confession. I've been a compulsive eater for many years. Let me make a distinction here, I'm not an addict. The behavior of an addict is very different. What is interesting is how I've experienced in the past is an insatiable appetite. I would measure out my food and know that the amount that was on my plate was enough to nourish my body but for some reason, I couldn't stop eating. There was an actual physical sensation of emptiness. In the last couple of weeks I have experienced a shift in consciousness. The compulsion has been lifted. I may experience a little bit of hunger but nothing like I did before.
I am also drawn to healthy foods. Everything tastes so amazing. Like this little raspberry in the collage, it is ripe and full of flavor. The exercise with the bricks has shown me what my triggers are: stress, fear, overwhelm, vulnerability, excessive responsibility, etc. Now that I have shed a light on these triggers, I can make a different choice, a healthy choice. I don't believe that I'm out of the woods, but I'm definitely on the trail heading home.
I have my eyes set on the horizon and I'm looking past the winter for this next wish. This summer my son will be in Colorado for two months. In this time, I'm looking forward to pulling out my camera, journal, and paints. A couple of years ago, I started photographing the different light houses in Maine. I'm looking forward to scouting out some new ones to add to my collection.
My second winter wish is to savor this time with my son while also preparing for my summertime adventures.
What is your winter wish? I have found when I spend some time considering my wishes and then declaring them, that miracles happen.
Swing by Jamie Ridler's blog to participate in Wishcasting Wednesday.
Kathryn, Collage Diva