The other morning I woke up early and started my day with my daily blog post. I then switched gears and went over to Facebook to share it. I was feeling good about myself and what I was working on until...
...until I followed one link to another and noticed what another person was offering up to the world. It stopped me dead in my tracks. I felt a zinger. In a flash I found myself comparing and feeling sooooo small. "Dang it!" I thought, "Don't go there!" Comparing is dangerous territory. It is a place that can leave us feeling weak, small, worthless. From what I can see, I think we all do it at one moment or another. We find ourselves comparing ourselves to those we see online. As soon as the feelings struck, I shut down the computer and walked away from it.
I asked myself, "What are you afraid of?"
"What are you jealous of?"
I shifted gears and listened to my Inner Wise Self:
"Kathryn, you have an important place in this world. There is plenty for you. You don't have to feel threatened or worried. Trust that the people who will benefit most from what you have to offer will find you. Keep on doing what you do best, being you!"
When I thought about this person who at first I felt jealousy toward, I realized that I really admire her and what she is doing. Honestly, what we are putting out in the world is very different. Her web presence is showing me that what I aspire to is not only possible but probable. In fact, her style is not my style and I don't want to look like her or sound like her. When I peeled back the layers and looked deep in my heart, I saw that what I admired about her was her confidence.
Ahhh confidence. Now that is my watchword for today and every day.
Pictured above is my SoulCollage card that represents my "Victorious Self." I have her posted on my vision board, standing confident.
Confidence is now my go to word when I'm feeling vulnerable. My affirmation is simply, "I believe in me."
By the time I headed for my morning shower I was feeling good again. "Maybe" I thought, "This was a good test, to see if I really want, what I think I want? Maybe, those knee-jerk reactions are designed to help me discern what is important and true in my life?"
Within an hour I had transformed my insecurity into confidence and I felt like my victorious self.
"What's next?" I thought as I began my day.
The next time you feel yourself comparing yourself, step away. Take a time out. Then turn to your journal to listen.
And remember when it comes to comparing, try as you might, try as others might, there is no one like you and no one can take that away from you.
May you have a lovely weekend.
With lots of love in my heart,
Kathryn, Collage Diva
PS - You don't want to miss this - click on the first photo of this post. It makes me go "ahhhh" every time I look at it enlarged. Don't you love it?